THIS IS HOW ALL OF US FEEL! yes i know

PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE....
I just wanna give up.
Yes, I'm serious.
I don't see a point in dragging myself to school everyday.
I don't see my happy face anymore.
I don't see the light of future that's ahead.
I don't see why must I do things that I never want to.

I KNOW, I KNOW, I KNOW....
I know there are things in life that is complicated.
I know I shouldn't just give up so easily when I've already done 2 years.
I know I shouldn't have this kind of mind set and attitude.
I know I shouldn't just look on the bad ugly side.
I know I shouldn't this and shouldn't that.

BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT....
I can't take this anymore.
I can't fake this anymore.
I can't hide this anymore.
I can't do this anymore.
I'm quitting.
Oh how I wish!!!!!!!

I WANT, I WANT, I WANT....
To wake up everyday with a purpose and meaning.
To understand why there isn't any world peace yet.
To do what I know I have to do.
To do things that complete me and my calling.
To be with people that I love and make a difference.
To be known for the things I've done for others.
To be the special someone to anyone whom they'll remember for life.
To smile at my grandparents cause they love me.
To swallow my pride when I'm in the wrong.
To laugh at my own silly mistakes and learn from it.
To leave this place and never come back.
To have no regrets if I ever do so.

NOW, NOW, NOW...
I'm just waiting for time to past.
My ass is rotting on the chair.
My brain cells are dying by the seconds.
I want to cry, cry it all away and wash it off.
I want to go for brain wash and not remember anything.
I want my mummy.

SO, SO, SO...
What should I do now now now?
So lost. So pissed. So worried. So drained. So terrified. So crazy.
So can I just give up please? *sigh